Messed up

I run nightmare scenarios all the time
It is like i can't give my mind some proper time to rest
would probably be the best
is not like i'm sitting complaining didn't even trying
my plan is work and study until i die to get the cash
you're not like any gash

but sometimes i lost my shit while understanding that you got your things
and sometimes i seem so weird and sure you got your point cuz is me losing grip
and sometimes i feel so sad that i start writing songs in order to exorcise it
and sometimes i feel so mad and insecure that all i wanna do is cry